My Story

My story begins having grown up throughout the lands of Ireland, Spain and the United States. Growing up in utter chaos and daily stress, I spent most of my life feeling alone, scared and like I didn’t belong. As I became a teenager I began to develop severe trauma symptoms and heavily tried to mask my differences. I tailored myself to conform to society but emotionally, I was barely getting by. I battled daily with phobias, anxiety attacks and social anxiety.

Then one day, it all changed. At 25 years old I had a profound Spiritual Awakening. A couple months later my Kundalini arose on September 27th 2015 and I was left in what some would call a physical, emotional and spiritual crisis. Every pocket of undigested pain within my body was unleashed. Along with an array of ever changing energetic symptoms that left me bed bound for months. For the first time in my life, I was re-connecting with who I was, the good, the bad and the ugly. The exiled pain in my psyche was emerging in order to heal and integrate. I began the process of unraveling my entire history of trauma & CPTSD, ancestral lineages, and de-conditioning all that had masked my true self. I have been in this ongoing daily process  for the past 9 years and a half years.

Throughout my awakening, I discovered that Spirituality wasn’t an easy or pain free process. I wished someone had the knowledge, understanding, and love to guide me through the darkness. I wished someone could hold space for what I was going through. I decided to become that person. I began opening my door for healing sessions and began an 8 year long career in coaching for spiritual emergence using parts work. I created a Youtube channel named Soulful Toz for 6 years, teaching others about the advantages and difficulties of going through such an intense evolutionary process.

During my twenties I gained a bachelors degree in biology /zoology in Ireland. I have a lot of scientific and logical parts, which came in handy once spirituality came into my life. I believe I bring a good balance of the holy and the practical to my teachings. A grounded spirituality.  My degree was a precursor to what I would be doing later, just now how I imagined. I was studying delicate  habitats and ecosystems in nature. I later discovered the Internal family systems model and learned how our inner world consists of a similar delicate ecosystem to that of nature but of  inner parts (subpersonalities). These parts can organize into dysfunctional roles after surviving trauma and become heavily burdened. Throughout this awakening, I didn’t realize that my inner habitat was becoming unstable as too many things were defrosting from the unconscious. IFS gave me a beautiful model to actually work with my spiritual emergence and provided just the roadmap I needed. That’s when I truly began to see shifts in how I was able to integrate and process the material.

I later began my bodywork career and became licensed massage therapist and an emotional release therapy practitioner. I further studied ecore energetics, and energy work and began seeing the intersection of all these modalities. I started my local business called Soulful Somatics. I’m passionate about merging Soulful IFS, Energy work, Expressive embodiment, Healing touch and Mindfulness with a touch of Humor and Divine Feminine into my practice. 

I specialize in working with those who are/have:

• Past & Ancestral trauma stored in the body

• Dysregulated nervous systems and Complex trauma

• Wanting to access more Self Energy & Self Compassion

• Neurodivergents (like me!) and sensitives empaths

• Kundalini Awakening and/or Spiritual Emergence

• Looking to access their full emotional spectrum (including joy, gratitude, pleasure)

• Anyone curious about Somatic healing