My Story

My story begins having grown up throughout the lands of Ireland, Spain and the United States. Growing up in utter chaos, I spent my life feeling alone, scared and like I didn’t belong anywhere. As a young adult, I tried to hide this as much as I possibly could and learned how to mask the majority of my emotions. I tailored myself to conform to society but emotionally, I was barely getting by. I used my left brain gifts to gain a bachelors degree in Science and zoology in Ireland. During those years I battled with anxiety disorders such as social anxiety, obsessive compulsive disorder, and years and years of childhood trauma that I had suppressed. I believed I was the enemy, that my body was against me, and deep down, I hated myself.

Then one day, it all changed. At 25 years old I had a profound Spiritual Awakening. A couple months later my Kundalini arose on September 27th 2015 and I was left in what some would call a physical, emotional and spiritual crisis. Every pocket of undigested pain within my body was unleashed. Along with an array of ever changing physical symptoms that left me bed bound for months. For the first time in my life, I was re-connecting with who I was. I began the process of unraveling my entire history of trauma & CPTSD, ancestral lineages, and de-conditioning all that had masked my true self. I have been in this ongoing daily process  for the past 8 years.

Throughout my awakening, I discovered that healing wasn’t pretty and I wished someone had the knowledge, understanding, and love to guide me through the darkness. I wished someone could hold space for what I was going through. I decided to become that person. I began opening my door for healing sessions and created a Youtube channel named Soulful Toz to document my process through a lens of authenticity and vulnerability. I continued making weekly videos for 7 years on my online platform to share the advantages and difficulties of going through such an intense evolutionary process. In 2022 I discovered I had parts that needed to shed the spiritual ego of my online platform and I made the decision to step away from Youtube. I have been following my fierce truth ever since.

Throughout the last 8 years of working with clients I realized that awakening or not, everyones inner system is begging for witnessing & healing. I began deepening my studies of how to help heal from somatic burdens stored as trauma. This has been one of the sole focuses of my work. To lead our inner system & parts with compassion as well as opening and restoring the body into openness and balance.